Not handling well.

So as most as you all know I miscarried last month..that is why I ahve been MIA, but I am back!! I think I took enough time off from School, Work and Online. I have missed you all!! I am not handling this well...My husband seems to be handling pretty fine..at first he wasn't but now he is just fine...He wants to start IUI #2 next month but I am not sure that I am ready just yet...I have told him I am not ready but he says we need to hurry and do it because he deploys this fall...but I don't know if I am ready..I honestly don't know what to do...that was my first BFP, my first pregnancy and my first miscarriage...I just can't believe I lost my baby...In August it will be 5 years of us TTC...and I just don't know what to do..Should I do the IUI or wait another month? Wait til I am ready? or just got for it because my husband is ready? I am so confused... I need ya'll advice, esp from those who have miscarried... Now that I am back.. I will be on Twitter 24/7 and Blog hopefully everyday! :)

Billie